tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16779637436458463422024-03-13T10:05:49.518-07:00WAKE.PRAY.SLAYMy life little footnote. It is not always to be something big, but it's important to have it noted anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.comBlogger84125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-20063132013218647592017-10-01T08:50:00.000-07:002017-10-01T08:50:15.418-07:00Oh Heart Stop Breaking, You Weren't Made in China!Sigh! kenapa hati tidak bekerja seperti besi? semakin ditempa, semakin kuat. lelah rasanya selalu jatuh di lubang yang sama. Bagaimana tuhan bisa percaya hati ini siap untuk ditempati oleh seseorang, belum sampai masuk saja bentuknya sudah berantakan. Mungkin kalau hati bisa memilih dia tidak akan minta untuk di produksi di China, atau China harus belajar bagaimana merapihkan hati yang berantakan dan tidak akan pecah lagi. Hehe kenapa urusan hati selalu serumit ini sih?<br />
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sudah tahu tidak semua harap berujung menyenangkan.<br />
ya, sudah tahu harap dengan imbuhan biasanya adalah akar kecewa.<br />
bisa saja sesuatu yang dimulai manis akan berakhir senyum meringis.<br />
bisa saja sesuatu yang berakhir canggung akan berakhir tanggung.<br />
bisa saja sesuatu yang dimulai dengan tertawa akan berakhir dengan hubungan yang bercanda.<br />
atau mungkin saja sebaliknya. <br />
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Ya, hidup sebercanda itu. Kenapa harus dibuat terlalu serius?<br />
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<br />anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-67053493036163839572017-08-31T06:42:00.000-07:002017-08-31T06:42:20.925-07:00Future Plan: YAY or NAY?Today is thursday feels like friday, because tomorrow is a free day, YAY welcoming a long weekend! I am sipping my hot cappucino double shot at the corner of coffee shop at train station. It is a common train station condition, crowded and overly noisy, but i enjoy it tho. Seeing train come and go, people go back and forth or just standing still with their smartphone and earphone on waiting the train to come, the sound of KAI person keep on updating out loud the train schedule, and of course the sound of the coffee shop's waiters saying "selamat datang kakak" again and again ☺ pretty interesting.<br />
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This week ive been thinking a lot about my future plan, it was started when i met my friend, a the conversation went from a love life, career, then a future plan. It always happen that way anyway, but this time we have the same thought on planning to take a master degree! Hal ini tidak pernah terlintas di pikiran saya sebelumnya, because:<br />
1. I hate my bachelor degree that much, the skripsi part exactly. So i dont think i can thru a thesis thing<br />
2. I have to spent like A LOT of money to take a master degree or else i have to get a scholarship, and to get it is of course a hell effort to do<br />
3. To prepare the scholarship requirement sure also need a cost, and its not cheap. I have to take an IELTS course and test, preparing the document and bla bla bla meanwhile untuk menabung saja perlu effort berlebih<br />
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Sigh! Hal ini yang membuat saya tidak berfikir untuk mengambil master degree. Tetapi sepertinya saya butuh ini untuk menunjang pekerjaan saya sekarang. Its a big step for me tho, semoga dilancarkan usahanya dan dibulatkan keyakinannya 😁 have a nice long weekend!! Byeanggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-2376491656027848692017-08-14T07:06:00.000-07:002017-08-14T07:06:03.177-07:00Hari ini seorang teman sharing his plan to propose my very bestfriend, what a happy news!!<br />
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Jika membahas tentang pilihan hidup, saya rasa tidak ada jawaban pasti apakah keputusan-keputusan yang diambil oleh seseorang untuk hidupnya benar atau salah, it's like a grey area. Banyak sekali hal-hal yang harus dipertimbangkan untuk menjawab pertanyaan ini. And besides we are not the one who can judge someone for his/her decision towards their life<br />
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Keputusan untuk memilih pendidikan yang seperti apa dan dimana, keputusan untuk bekerja dengan passion atau bekerja sekedarnya saja, keputusan untuk memilih pasangan hidup yang seperti apa, sampai dengan keputusan-keputusan mengenai kepercayaan apa yang diyakini.<br />
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Dan saya salut dengan orang-orang yang berani mengambil keputusan besar yang efeknya mungkin bisa membuat hidupnya berubah 180 derajat. Lingkungan yang tidak mendukung, tantangan yang lebih banyak, pressure yang lebih tinggi, orang-orang yang mungkin dianggap akan selalu ada untuk support apapun keputusan yang kita ambil lenyap seketika. I'm sure it's not an easy thing. It's a good thing then if they can cope with those struggles.<br />
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Yes, life is that complicated tho ☺anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-74928895591762566242017-07-07T12:09:00.000-07:002017-07-09T05:57:14.885-07:00Genap Seperempat AbadKembali lagi sampai di tanggal 7 bulan 7, ya di hari itu saya genap seperempat abad. I don't know but i feel so excited for being 25. By being 25, I have to put this on my mind, that in the middle of the journey of being 20's to love myself is everything, fullstop! I feel so grateful in my early 20's i am sorrounded by amazing family and friends who are very supportive, who always encourage me to do better, to try new things, to believe pretty is not merely about physical appearance. I am excited to do new things, to meet new people, to try to live a healthy life, to promise to read more, and some things to do list on my 25 ☺ semoga bisa tercapai ya pelan-pelan.<br />
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Wishes untuk pasangan belum ada ya? 😁 tahun ini saya mau berusaha fokus dengan diri sendiri, berusaha untuk mengerti diri sendiri, berusaha untuk menerima dan mencintai diri sendiri, berusaha untuk menghargai diri sendiri. Saya percaya Allah akan mempertemukan saya dengan pasangan ketika saya siap, bukan hanya karena saya butuh. Mungkin ketika semua itu sudah bisa saya lakukan, dan saya bertemu dengan pasangan saya, i dont have to depend on him for being happy. Haha saya merasa tulisan saya semakin hari semakin menunjukan kalau umur saya bertambah. Being old is an exciting journey, embrace it! Happy 25! 👌anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-84218062784891382182017-05-26T09:30:00.001-07:002017-05-26T09:30:45.812-07:00Quarter Life CrisisSad.<br />
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The time when you finally home, and suddenly feeling blue. A mix feeling, i just can't describe it.<br />
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#1 FAILED INTERVIEW<br />
I got an interview today, and i ruined it. The thing is offering ini datang ketika saya sudah mantap memutuskan untuk fokus di tempat saya bekerja saat ini, because it seems promising. Jadilah saya tidak mempersiapkan interview dengan baik, its like nothing to lose. Sampai ketika selesai interview, muncul nama bos baik hati di layar handphone,i thought he asked something related kerjaan. And taraaa he bring a surprise!! There-is-NO-INCREAMENT-THIS-YEAR, DANG!! 🙃 dan siangnya lo baru merusak kesempatan. I dont know, but i do feel sad, the feeling when you think you've done much but you dont feel appreciated.<br />
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#2 EXPECTATION KILLS<br />
This person been in my head these past few weeks, i need this kind of person, i do feel i want do better since i knew him. But it happen to be a mutual feeling ☺ maybe i expect to much. Menginjak umur 25 ini saya mulai merasakan the need of someone, to share, to laugh with, to travel with. Berat ternyata being single ketika umur semakin bertambah. Untuk hal satu ini sepertinya hal paling bijak yang bisa saya lakukan adalah dibawa dalam doa, and let god do the rest.<br />
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#FEELING INSECURE<br />
Entah kenapa 2 hal diatas membuat saya semakin merasa insecure. Ketika saya sudah merasa yakin, lalu ternyata semuanya berubah. Ketika saya merasa 'he is the right person' tetapi yang bersangkutan tidak merasa demikian membuat saya bertanya-tanya ada apa dengan saya? apa hal salah yang saya lakukan? Saya sedang dalam tahap lelah, too much surprising things. And there's no one to share, and i just can't share this even to my best, that's why i need someone who i fully trust.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-16117750816069432452017-05-23T06:17:00.000-07:002017-05-23T06:17:10.529-07:00Mr. Right (?)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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"Timing is something that none of us can seem to get quite right with relationship" yes true so just dont ever think it would be perfect if only i met him before bla bla bla, or it may be work if only i did bla bla bla that day. The thing is Anggita my honey, the people we meet at the wrong time are actually just the wrong people, fullstop. Let it go.</div>
anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-11829497708744099952017-04-28T08:45:00.001-07:002017-04-28T08:45:26.475-07:00A Ghost From The PastKalo kata Pablo Neruda: “Love is so short, forgetting is so long.”<br />
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Dang!! Chat malam ini dari mantan, yang tadi sore tiba-tiba muncul dikantor bawa sekotak ice cream sebagai permintaan maaf karena sudah membatalkan janji makan siang.<br />
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Oh well, sepertinya saya sudah tidak aneh dengan sesuatu yang serba tiba-tiba. Seperti tiba-tiba pergi, lalu tiba-tiba kembali lagi, dan tiba-tiba mengirimkan chat ini. It makes me feel like a joke and annoyed and disgusted at the same time.<br />
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Mungkin dia lupa, kita sudah sama-sama dewasa, manisnya ice cream sudah tidak cukup lagi untuk menghapus pahitnya rasa kecewa.<br />
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The feeling when he left you unsaid, and you know he already has a new girlfriend, then years later he came to you said that he is sorry for the thing he did to me back then, and now he think that i can feel the same thing again.<br />
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Ehehehe MAJOR BULLSHIT of 2017 🙃anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-88380534454719021262017-04-05T09:05:00.002-07:002017-04-05T09:05:18.398-07:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Wednesday, april 5th. One of infamous Bee Gees's song how deep is your love is playing on the radio. Its 11 at night, the best time to think again what's been on my mind and what did i do these past few weeks. The above words are pretty much sum up what happened lately. There here is, being too scared to do something new has been my biggest problem, the thing that makes me stuck in one place, and i'm pretty aware of it. I missed a job opportunity, beacuse of my fault, overthinking the pointless thing, not focus, and ruin it, a very good job :). Yea well next time i will remember either it will work or it won't, THAT'S LIFE ANGGITA. Dont overthink! Dont underestimate yourself! Just do it, believe in yourself!anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-75805390766805945082016-09-26T09:03:00.000-07:002016-09-26T09:03:28.150-07:00Stop doubting. Stop overthinking. Life is happening and dont waste it wishing it was different. If you want change make a change.<br />
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Pretty sum up of how i feel lately. I scared. Scared of change. Of thinking where to go, of thinking im not good enough to be able to change, of thinking that i dont have any particular skill im good at, and bla and bla. Yes, i do overthinking, i'm too scared to make a step, to make a mistake.<br />
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Meanwhile, my friends are one step ahead, they start to know where they have to go or what they want to do.<br />
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I do really need a support system, and i know i have to build it within myself. Hhhhh........ this too shall pass anggita.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-62536301071363642952016-09-16T05:47:00.000-07:002016-09-16T05:47:00.062-07:00Friday, 7.30<br />
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Im listening to labrinth - jealous, cover by adhitya something, dont blame me for not remember his name, i listen this song on a radio, but he got a pretty voice tho. Oh well i'm currently siting on a corner of a coffee shop at train station, considering this as my 'me time'. there's always the mood to write when you have a good song, cup of coffee, and of course plenty of time.<br />
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There's no major progress, i still dealing with this and that, and still try to enjoy the ride, instead of doing a never ending complain. I start to enjoy being alone, i start to have the courage to go to someplace by myself, to think that 'hey it's okay to go alone, what's wrong with that?"<br />
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And oh i do feel kinda bored, my friends (like half of my friends) is busy talking bout a gossip account on instagram, or talk bout them as if you know them, media social really made people easily judge other people. Shhhh just dont find it interesting.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-9754557315914093982016-07-12T08:36:00.001-07:002016-07-12T08:36:58.212-07:00Life companion.<br />
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a friend, an enemy, and a lover in one person, no?<br />
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Have it come to your mind what life companion really is?<br />
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If i were a man and asked what kind of life companion you would ever asked? I would definitely say my mom kind of person. I salute and admire her a lot. I do.<br />
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Beliau orang paling sabar yang pernah saya tahu, Mama adalah orang yang rela meninggalkan karirnya demi mengurus saya dan adik saya, yang selalu menyisihkan uangnya untuk kami jajan lebih meskipun (sekarang) saya mengerti beliau terkadang tidak punya uang untuk itu, ibu adalah orang yang tidak pernah mengeluh walaupun saya tahu pekerjaan beliau dirumah mungkin lebih melelahkan dari pekerjaan saya dikantor, dan mama adalah orang paling sabar yang Tuhan ciptakan untuk ayah saya.<br />
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Ayah saya termasuk satu dari segelintir laki-laki yang masih percaya bahwa tugas dan pekerjaan seorang istri adalah dirumah mengurus keluarganya. dan menurut saya bertahan hidup dijaman sekarang dengan seseorang dengan pemikiran seperti itu is a nightmare. And my mom did it anyway. Mungkin itu yang orang bilang tuhan itu mempertemukan seseorang sebagai pasangan karena tuhan tahu mereka saling mengisi saling nelengkapi. Saya percaya itu, tidak ada yang 'kebetulan' untuk hal satu ini. Mereka mungkin 2 orang dengan sifat yang sangat berbeda, tapi mereka tau cara bagaimana agar mereka dapat berjalan bersama.<br />
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For whatever reason every couple stay to each other companion is, i salute them. Because i know its not as easy as a fairytale you read backthen when you're 6.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-58974444257534058822016-07-01T06:01:00.001-07:002016-07-01T06:01:46.848-07:007 days to goHi, im currently having my grande cappucino at train station after a tired week. Today is the last day of work before a long long holiday. yes, its libur lebaran! And getting close to my birthday!<br />
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Seven.<br />
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I dont know, but i like this number that much.<br />
Today is seven days to go to 24. Yes, i will turned 24 by next week. 07 - 07. So excited yet feel bit anxious.<br />
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I still think getting older is scary. People are getting so selfish, things are getting more complicated, conversation are getting serious. A time when they feel like rushing in almost everything, when passion is not just a word you read in a magazine, when enjoying something by yourself is sometimes being your stress relieving, when having a job is not merely about earn money, when a companion is not merely having someone to have fun with you. :)<br />
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But i promise i will enjoy the ride, whatever it is! :) ciao... i have to take my train back home. Happy holiday!anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-53255316291397453352016-06-03T07:42:00.000-07:002016-06-03T07:44:21.738-07:00Bojong Gede station - 06.55 am<br />
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Hi im back to routine, commuting bogor - jkt early in the morning. As usual, i take a commuter line on 7.00 or 6.50. There is some 'attributes' that almost all people who take commuter line would wear, mask and earphone, dunno, but its kind of mandatory 😁<br />
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Commuter line these past few days sucks, and oh so does with jakarta's traffic ☺ anyway this is my first day being the-what-so-called-with-pegawai-tetap ehehe. There's no much difference tho, they just change the 'label' 😛<br />
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Manggarai station - 9.12 pm<br />
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Im waiting for my commuter line back home, and now im listening to radio with my grande ice cappucino. A cappucino ice after waiting a bus for 30 mins, and being rejected by 2 gojek driver, and walking for about 15 min, is heaven.<br />
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I love to hear songs in radio at this hour, somehow its like they play a song to ease the pain after standing in a public transportation for hours, also to let you think for what have you did today. And now they play a song from yovie and nuno, all time legend. I do wondering these past few days 'do i really want to live this kind of routine for years?'. I'm not talking bout the job, i love the job. But the traffic, the commuter line things is killing me. Thought i shud start to find a new job, with a new number in my payroll, so i can rent a dorm or else.<br />
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The good thing from today is its friday, some hours to free-day!!!anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-59663125600961094262016-06-02T07:29:00.001-07:002016-06-02T08:53:18.097-07:00First thing first, today sucks!<br />
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I believe whover have a job or something to do in jakarta, will spent half of their day stuck in traffic. And i salute them. These past 2 years i do also dealing with the traffic, and by today traffic is everywhere and its worse. And commute jkt - bogor everyday just make it worse. And when you got home you have no electricity. Die. I miss jogja, i miss not being in a rush, i miss enjoying my cup of coffee, music, books, i miss every single thing bout that city. that one lovely city.<br />
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Remember this anggita, when the going gets tough, the tough get going. 💪💪anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-39859853366374374692016-04-30T09:26:00.000-07:002016-04-30T09:26:21.751-07:00Hi there twenty something life,<br />
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As i'm getting older, i realized that i can't depend on someone or something. I do feel that expectation kills. People are getting busy with their life and their problems, so do i. You just can't expect time will remain the same and someone will not change. It really hurts. Being older is scary. Adulthood is selfish. You will get disappointed for something or someone a thousand more times. But darling, in the end, you have to be your own hero, because everyone is busy trying to save themselves.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-17342706136476522162015-08-02T07:51:00.000-07:002015-08-02T07:51:52.161-07:00Hiii, been ages! Hows life? This month i turned 23! O M G, cant believe its already 23. Lately i have soooo many thoughts on my mind, i know when i got 23 i shud have a life goal, having a plan B or even plan C just to make it come true. But having a lot of thoughts without having someone to share is truly a whole lot of work. Now i know, and i admit it, as youre getting older, people, friends are also getting busy with their life, busy making up their future, and you sure need someone to lean on when you feel tired after a hard time at work, someone just to share hows each other day going, someone who can put a smile just before you start the day. And i know life isn't just about how much money you can make, or how powerful you are at work, but it is simply about how good you can manage your relationship with your loving one, your family, your friends, everyone :)anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-75259139490598642014-10-05T18:06:00.000-07:002014-10-05T18:06:18.034-07:00upside downI have been working for about 4 months. Doing a routine, the thing when you do a routine is sometimes you will meet the same person and the same thing everyday. And the thing about change is you will never know when it will strike your life or your routines. Today, oct 6th, feels so weird. This is my first day without my kindhearted manager, and my last day take a car to go to work as my uncle resign from his current job. And its getting weird as the person i used to meet while waiting for a bus is not the person i usually met, mas mas yg selalu turun di jl. Surabaya, kenek kenek perempuan yang mungkin tinggal di halte itu, bapak bapak penjual minuman di sepeda, the one and only tukang ojek di halte itu setiap pagi, bapak bapak penjual bubur ayam, hilang, berubah dengan sosok sosok baru. It feels really weird when you still do the same thing, the same place with a totally different people. Perubahan itu menyeramkan, menakutkan. Dia bisa datang kapan saja when you feel like your life is absolutely fine, but then it come and put your life upside down.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-36041230894336643842014-10-02T04:32:00.000-07:002014-10-02T04:32:06.864-07:007 years7 years is not a short time. By tomorrow my manager will not working with us again. This month is my 4 months working in this company. 4 months is enough for me to know that he is such a good person, a leader yet a friend. As im a newbie here, he always told me to do better and ask whenever you want, he helped me much. i'm such a lucky to be able to know him as my first manager. I'm surely sad, so do with my team mates. We know he go for good. As thinking he will go by tomorrow, i just wondering how it feels like to leave your job After about 7 years. For i do feel really sad when i had to leave jogja after 4 years. Can't imagine if its 7 years.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-90080004591756801052014-02-27T09:56:00.000-08:002014-02-27T09:56:38.885-08:00AkhirnyaAkhirnya. Kata yang rasanya selalu saya tunggu-tunggu. Kata yang saya kira sudah bisa saya ucapkan untuk menutup bulan ini. Seperti ketika akhirnya saya sidang skripsi, momment yang sudah ditunggu-tunggu untuk diberitahukan kepada kedua orang tua saya. Mungkin kata ini ternyata efeknya seperti yang orang-orang katakan tentang narkoba. Nagih, tapi efeknya hanya sementara. Karena ketika akhirnya momment ini datang saya masih harus kembali ke kenyataan kalau tanggal ujian skripsi saya tidak memungkinkan saya untuk wisuda bulan februari ini. Rentetan rencana sebelum sampai sesudah hari penting bersama teman seperjuangan-pun hilang bersama air mata saya. Lagi, dan lagi, saya harus mengecewakan kedua orang tua saya. Dan kenyataan lain kalau saya bersama dosen penguji berinisial 'mawar' itu, meninggalkan saya bersama seabrek revisi yang sampai bulan inipun belum selesai. Really it sucks.<br />
Saya benci tahap ini, proses menuju dewasa sepertinya akan selalu mejadi yang paling sulit. Sama sulitnya ketika saya harus meninggalkan mereka, atau sebaliknya. Ya, mereka adalah teman yang sudah seperti keluarga. Berkumpul bersama mereka selalu jadi obat suntuk paling ampuh. Saya bersyukur masih bisa memiliki mereka sampai ketika sekarang saya seharusnya sudah pulang ke rumah. Sekarang mereka sedang mencari masa depannya masing-masing, doa saya selalu yang terbaik untuk mereka. Tuhan, izinkan saya berkumpul bersama mereka lagi ketika kami sudah mendapatkan semuanya, amin :)<br />
Hal yang ternyata lebih sulit lagi adalah meninggalkan kamar ini. Ketika akhirnya harus memasukan barang-barang itu kembali. Membiarkan ruangan ini sama seperti empat tahun lalu ketika saya memilih untuk tinggal disini.Kamar yang selalu menjadi tempat singgah siapaun sebelum ke kamarnya masing-masing atau singgah untuk sekedar 'ngadem' di siang bolong. Kamar yang selalu penuh dengan barang-barang dan makanan yang entah punya siapa saja. Kamar yang hampir tidak pernah sepi selain pemiliknya sedang ingin tidur 'serius' atau sedang bad mood dan mengunci rapat-rapat kamar dan jendela.<br />
Hari ini tepat tanggal 28 Februari, yang artinya waktu saya hanya kurang dari lima-belas hari untuk akhirnya benar-benar meninggalkan kamar ini, wisma ini, ibu kosan ter-fenomenal, teman-teman super, komplek dengan orang-orang rese, berbagai macam bentuk burjo gaul, salon cuci-catok 'goceng', gading mas sahabat anak kosan, jalan kaliurang super fancy, kakek 'The Beatles' wanna be dengan gitar dan harmonikanya, platinum warnet yang tetap dihati, kampus biru, rooftop perpus, jogging sore di gsp dengan tujuan cuci mata, sunmor, sholat teraweh di maskam ala-ala mejeng nyari cowo, ayam geprek cabe 5, angkringan yang 'katanya' harga mahasiswa, buku murah togamas, cha-cha taro smoothies with pearl, es kopi bang jo dengan mas-mas sok asik (untung ada yang ganteng), jalan-jalan suntuk ke malioboro, acara gratis di TBY, alun-alun dengan the never ending sekaten, dan yang lain, dan yang lain. Ah, tau kan kenapa koper saya tidak cukup untuk memasukan itu semua untuk dibawa pulang. ternyata kata 'akhirnya' yang saya pikir akan selalu menyenangkan, tidak bekerja seperti apa yang saya pikirkan. Terimakasih Yogyakarta, 4 tahun ini akan selalu menjadi istimewa.<br />
<br />anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-48332971000320967812013-12-31T10:01:00.002-08:002013-12-31T10:01:35.990-08:002014!hai sekarang pukul 00.45 di hari pertama tahun 2014. yes, i finally finish this chapter (chapter 2013, page 365 of 365). this year i have been through good and bad times, dan itu semua selalu membuat saya belajar, dan hasilnya ya saya sekarang. dari mulai apa yaaa<br />
1. Dari mulai awal tahun teman dekat saya lulus duluan, dan menyusul yang lain-lainnya sampai hanya tersisa secuil teman perjuangan skripsi saya. but here i am, like one step ahead to become a graduated student.<br />
2. mereka para lelaki yang datang dan pergi :) kalau ada pelajaran untuk menunggu, sepertinya nilai saya sudah bisa dikatan cumlaude hehe tahun ini saya belajar untuk mulai menerima kekurangan orang lain, belajar membuka diri, dan tentunya belajar ikhlas<br />
3. do it now! ini yang saya pelajari tahun ini dari menunda skripsi saya selama 2 semester, jika tidak saya lakukan saya tidak akan mendapatkan apa yang saya inginkan.<br />
4. menjadi 20 tahun itu sulit, dan merancang masa depan adalah tugas paling sulit yang pernah saya lakukan, intinya adalah apa yang kamu tanam itu yang kamu tuai.<br />
5. tidak boleh ada kata menyesal, kalau boleh dihitung-hitung mungkin saya punya tumpukan setinggi 4 lantai. tapi hey you're the one who decide, so you're the one who take the risks. kalau saya menilai diri sendiri saja belum becus, bagaimana orang lain menilai saya.<br />
memulai tahun ini, membuat serentetan resolusi rasanya lebih sulit ya dari tahun-tahun sebelumnya, so i'll post it later. jadi, terimakasih ya allah untuk tahun ini, kesehatan sepanjang tahun, teman-teman yang setia, pengalaman-pengalam yang berharga, dan kenangan-kenangan yang sulit dilupakan.hello 2014!<br />
<br />anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-92079896044692838892013-12-28T09:38:00.001-08:002013-12-28T09:38:23.741-08:00dia yang selalu datang belakanganhe is a year older than me, he is an engineer, he is a moslem, he is a Javanese (yes sometimes it matters) and i like this kind of guy tho, and he graduated early. we meet like a year ago. we start going out the beginning of this year, and it went pretty well. lets call we do a movie date, we have a lunch or dinner sometimes, rarely text messages, it is between he knows how to keep me around or it is just the way he is :) thought of those things, i surely have no reason not to be with him. at that time, it just don't work out with me, while deep down in my heart i want it going as the way two people who had a so called <i>pedekate</i> expect. so yeah, here i am. now i know why people always say "<i>kenapa sih penyesalan selalu dateng belakangan?</i>'" funny. the last time we communicate were in may, see? funny, isn't it? why it took such a long time for me to realize that i want that person, i need that kind of relationship, i spoiled it with no reason left for him. man! this is December, i took too much time just for realize that i missed him. and yesterday i went like crazy stalker, i try to found him in almost social media, and it turns out zero. found another good thing bout him, he is not doin a social media 'thing' :) well haha that's called <i>penyesalan</i> tho. i cant even reach him when i still hope that we can meet somewhere, sometimes. geez! another chance pleaseeeeeeeanggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-51540843128570033382013-10-27T12:59:00.000-07:002013-10-27T12:59:19.386-07:00counting the daysHai, sekarang baru 2 jam lebih 10 menit memasuki tanggal 21 oktober. Suasana pagi sehabis hujan dan lagu-lagu radio malam yang selalu lebih menyenangkan daripada di primetime, mengingatkan saya kalau waktu saya berkurang lagi sehari. Dalam waktu kurang dari 1 bulan ada hari wisuda beberapa teman yang rasa-rasanya berat sekali untuk datang, kurang dari 2 bulan lagi (mungkin) akan muncul tanggal-tanggal ujian akhir beberapa teman saya, kurang dari 3 bulan lagi saya diharuskan untuk menyelesaikan skripsi ini, dan itu artinya kurang dari 4 bulan sisa waktu saya untuk akhirnya meninggalkan kota ini, meninggalkan kampus ini, meninggalkan kamar ini. Kedatangan di kota ini dan menetap tidak pernah direncanakan sebelumnya, karena tidak yakin dengan hasil tes yang dikerjakan dan sebelum pengumuman datang ternyata saya sudah diterima di kampus ipb sebagai calon mahasiswa komunikasi (jurusan impian tentunya). Tapi siapa yang menyangka kalau ternyata saya akan berujung di sini, meninggalkan segala kenyamanan di bogor. Dan sisa 4 bulan ini mungkin akan terasa seperti 4 tahun terakhir yang terasa sangat sangat cepat. Ternyata saya dan kota ini bukan saja perkara menimba ilmu. Banyak sekali yang saya dapat, pelajari, dan nikmati dari kota ini. Mulai dari kosan yang saya tinggali 4 tahun ini dan penjaga kosan yang terlalu sering berganti-ganti, ibu kosan, jam malam dan segala dramanya, burjo depan gang dengan aa yang sampai sekarang entah sudah berapa kali ganti generasi dan populasi aa ganteng pun punah sudah, warung makan super lama disebelah kosan yang masih bertahan walaupun sepi, aneka olahan ayam dibawah sepuluh ribu yang bertebaran disekitar kosan, kampus sastra dengan orang-orang membumi didalamnya, es kopi mas yat, ayam geprek bonbin, dan tawa pengisi jeda jam kuliah, acara-acara budaya di sekitaran km.0 yang tersohor sebagai pelarian dari rutinitas mahasiswa seperti saya yang... begitulah, kedai-kedai kopi murah ketika sudah mulai bosan mengerjakan di kamar, kota yang membawa saya ke beberapa pantai cantik hanya dalam waktu sekitar 2 jam dengan sepeda motor, angkringan yang disebut-sebut makanan murah tapi tidak jadi murah ketika saya beli :) (post ini mungkin tidak akan selesai jika saya teruskan :p) sepertinya tidak akan pernah selesai jika saya harus membungkus dan membawa pulang apa yang sudah diberikan kota ini. Meninggalkan beberapa kenangan untuk nantinya dinikmati lagi setelah menyicipi tempat lain (for good kalau kata anak jam sekarang) rasanya hal yang bijak dan akan lebih menyenangkan nantinya.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-14768316641853194542013-09-07T10:51:00.001-07:002013-09-07T10:51:30.554-07:00Been through the hard week, and will through another weeks that even harder maybe. Because you'll see your friend go, satu persatu, but it seems not that easy. By this month i have to let go 4 of my bestfriends go back to jakarta. I know anytime soon i will go with them but really yang sulit bukanlah meninggalkan kota ini, tapi meninggalkan kenangannya, meninggalkan kebiasaannya. Sekarang saja ketika yang lain sudah satu persatu meninggalkan kota ini rasanya sudah beda. Cant imagine if im being the one who have to leave this city as a student. This time i really cant handle the feelin, like for the first time i let senny go back home. And i will do the same thing this tuesday, teman pertama dikosan ini, tetangga sebelah kamar, teman yang kamarnya dengan sesuka hati suka gua pake, teman pergi ke acara bareng, teman nonton gigs tiap weekend, teman sarapan pagi, teman yang ga ribet kalo diajak kesana kemari. Aaah too much things to mention. I dont wanna cry (again) but the feeling being left by your friend is a mixed between sadness and stressful. God please lancarkan usaha saya, cant wait to start my new chapter of life.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-70588212916310039222013-08-31T05:30:00.002-07:002013-08-31T05:30:46.788-07:00Theres a time when you cant trust on something or someone, even to yourself. Really this pressure killing me. I want trust myself for doing this graduating paper things, but i cant. Feel like theres a huge thing that i cant climb. And the fact that my friend just finished it just getting me nuts. Yah mah kali ini percaya sama aku, i'm put my ass off to do this, i dont make you wait any longer, i dont want it. Sorry for make you wait any longer.anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1677963743645846342.post-22698686411850163502013-07-20T15:41:00.000-07:002013-07-20T15:41:05.690-07:00Kata seorang teman kita harus sering mendoakan jodoh kita. Like you never know who is he? What did he does? Or where is he? Ya allah dimanapun dia berada, sejauh apapun dia dari saya sekarang, atau apapun yang dia lakukan. taruhlah dia selalu dekat denganmu, berikan dia kesehatan, rezeki yang lancar, akhlak yang baik dan berikanlah dia petunjuk agar dia menyicil jalannya menuju tempat dimana saya berada. Satu yang saya yakin, dia adalah yang terbaik yang akan kamu berikan kepadaku ya allah. Seseorang yang bisa membawa saya didekatmu juga :)anggitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01655083530465398261noreply@blogger.com0