Jumat, 26 Mei 2017

Quarter Life Crisis

Sad.

The time when you finally home, and suddenly feeling blue. A mix feeling, i just can't describe it.

#1 FAILED INTERVIEW
I got an interview today, and i ruined it. The thing is offering ini datang ketika saya sudah mantap memutuskan untuk fokus di tempat saya bekerja saat ini, because it seems promising. Jadilah saya tidak mempersiapkan interview dengan baik, its like nothing to lose. Sampai ketika selesai interview, muncul nama bos baik hati di layar handphone,i thought he asked something related kerjaan. And taraaa he bring a surprise!! There-is-NO-INCREAMENT-THIS-YEAR, DANG!! 🙃 dan siangnya lo baru merusak kesempatan. I dont know, but i do feel sad, the feeling when you think you've done much but you dont feel appreciated.

#2 EXPECTATION KILLS
This person been in my head these past few weeks, i need this kind of person, i do feel i want do better since i knew him. But it happen to be a mutual feeling ☺ maybe i expect to much. Menginjak umur 25 ini saya mulai merasakan the need of someone, to share, to laugh with, to travel with. Berat ternyata being single ketika umur semakin bertambah. Untuk hal satu ini sepertinya hal paling bijak yang bisa saya lakukan adalah dibawa dalam doa, and let god do the rest.

#FEELING INSECURE
Entah kenapa 2 hal diatas membuat saya semakin merasa insecure. Ketika saya sudah merasa yakin, lalu ternyata semuanya berubah. Ketika saya merasa 'he is the right person' tetapi yang bersangkutan tidak merasa demikian membuat saya bertanya-tanya ada apa dengan saya? apa hal salah yang saya lakukan? Saya sedang dalam tahap lelah, too much surprising things. And there's no one to share, and i just can't share this even to my best, that's why i need someone who i fully trust.

Selasa, 23 Mei 2017

Mr. Right (?)


"Timing is something that none of us can seem to get quite right with relationship" yes true so just dont ever think it would be perfect if only i met him before bla bla bla, or it may be work if only i did bla bla bla that day. The thing is Anggita my honey, the people we meet at the wrong time are actually just the wrong people, fullstop. Let it go.