warwick avenue

this is some lyrics from daffy's song, heart this song.. sooo me story haha curcol. this song i dedicated only for you! yes you dewwd!

Don’t say we’re okay
Just because I’m here
You hurt me bad but I wont shed a tear

I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you're loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
Outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.

dia si kaum adam

"semua cowo itu pada dasarnya brengsek, cuma kadarnya doang yang beda. bersyukurlah kalau kamu mengenal laki2 yang mempunyai hanya sedikit kadar brengsek. dan biasanya semakin banyak kadar brengsek seorang laki2, semakin dia ga sadar kalo dia sudah termasuk ke dalam golongan itu."
kata2 ini tadi siang diucapin ketika kita ngumpul karena ada yang nangis lagi-lagi masalahnya tentang makhluk bernama "laki-laki". yeah i know that statement is too intimidate. tapi klo difikir2 emang iya ko. sorry to say, gua tau banyak orang yang not included to that type person, tapi gua lebih tau banyak orang yang termasuk golongan itu. dia memberikan harapan, dia memperlakukan seperti "pasangannya" sendiri, dia memberi kehangatan, dia membuat si perempuan jatuh hati, percaya, lalu buta. setelah itu apalagi yang dilakukan? pergi, gitu aja? jawabannya iya. ngapain dia pergi? jalan lah sama cewe lain. what else! minta maaf? bagus kalo dia sadar apalagi minta maaf.
dan gua tau mau kita ngeluh sampe jungkir balik juga tetep aja emang harus gitu, laki-laki yang menyakiti dan perempuan disakiti. yah mungkin emang harusnya gitu. beware! :)
sorry gua lagi emosi sama yang namanya cowo haha

life to learn, learn how to live

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.
-- Author Unknown

Thursday 14th sept, yesterday!! no, let's say about a week or couple weeks ago i just know someone who i think good for me. and we've had what people call with 'dating', but i wont call with that way, I'll call it 'first meeting'. then the things we talk go in a good way, chatting, texting, messaging and so on and so on. everything like goin pretty well and i must say that i act like a teenage fallin in. couple days ago he's like lost by a big wave in the deep sea and sink or die eated by shark. no things happen like before. till yesterday i knew that he just have a girlfriend. dang!! damn GOOD dude.
i wont blame him, i know life is all about choosing things. but he's like promising something more to me. if you ask what did i feel? disappointed? exhausted? regretting? embarrass? YES absolutely. but then i realize i have to choose. stuck and spent time hating that guy, or moving forward by making this a lesson to learn, smile and find another. so i prefer the second of course :)

thanks for spent your time hearing my thoughts, i just don't know who i can share this though freely. so i choose you, yes you my little diary that never give a comment. never tell anyone okay this is just mine and you. pinkypromise :) byeee